But if there was a God

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Caution, personal "disclaimer":  This is MY blog.  I don't owe anybody  any explanations or excuses.   Still, many of the readers here are friends, family, or just people who care.  There's no intention here to hurt anybody's feeling.  Please remember that as you read.  Again, this is MY blog and my place to express my thoughts.

WARNING:  I'm shooting randomly from the hip with no aiming.

Ok, here we go:
Those of you who know me well know that I don't believe in god.  I have a long history of maybe not really searching, but asking a lot of question.  I did have my doubts - both ways - when growing up (I'll be happy to elaborate, but this is not really the topping here).  Later I also did some self studying.  All led me to where I am today - not believing in god - which I can explain and defend (defend???  what is there to defend?) at any time (it may take some beer if you want to hear me....I don't work for free). 

But if there was a God (or for those readers who do believe in such), how can you explain and justify what Liam is going through?  Is that God who choose to put her through all this misery?  Why?  What did she do wrong?  What's the message in it and for who?  Either this guy doesn't know good from bad or he doesn't exist.  I don't see many other options here. 

If you, yes you, my loyal and caring reader, if you have these answers, I'd love to hear them.  I'll pay for the beer or coffee or whatever.  But please no "God is working in mysterious ways" and no "God is graceful" all that BS.  Been there done that.  I don't buy any of that.  My own family, whom I never got to meet, was wiped out in the Holocaust - together with the rest of the Jews and Gypsies and homosexuals and many other innocents.  No good came out of that.  I lost some of my best friends during the years.  No mystery was revealed there. (But just to clarify, I don't not-believing in god because of any of that.) Don't give me biblical "miracles" either.  Neither of us were there to witness and we don't know who wrote it.   I could go on and on, but you get the point.  And now there's Liam, who not only done nothing wrong (to who?  and who's judging???), but all she is is goodness, and love.  So if you have any answers, please stop by Liam's bed and explain to her what did she do to deserve it.  Don't leave out the God part.  Be honest with yourself.
 
There are many  expressions, slogans, and claims - most of them used in many religions.  For example, "don't question God's wisdom....he must have his reasons...".  Or, "Liam is suffering for a reason....beyond our understanding...".   Please don't bother trying to explain any of those to me or to Liam - if you can't prove them.  It's easy to throw the responsibility on somebody else with no cost to you; likewise, it's easy to let somebody else suffer when you don't feel a thing.  Sorry, words won't do it.
 
And if you go to church or synagogue or mosque or whatever to pray, please ask for some answers and explanation for your pray.  Not from your rabbi or priest but from your God himself.  And please, please, please share them with me.

So two questions then:
1.  What do you believe in, Asher?  You must believe in something?
Glad you asked.  I believe in myself first of all.  I believe that love and kindness can solve many of our problems.  And I believe that education can teach us take responsibility and action and not hang everything on God.  (But I don't believe I'll get to watch golf this weekend.)

2.  So what is God, then? 
I believe God is an entity that early humans invented and created so it would help them explain nature.  But like so many other things in this world, it got overrated and out of hand. (Thus, I also believe that all gods were created equal.  I don't see no difference between the Jewish god and Jesus and Muhammad and Shiva and....well, you get the point.  They are all man-made gods or sons-of-gods or whatever you wanna call it.)


Many people said several times how much they pray for Liam.  We certainly appreciate it.  We really do!  People's own beliefs and good intention has nothing to do with this posting.  At the same time, what are all the prays good for if they don't yield results????  (Similarly, why pray?   Who can tell if it's good or bad or meaningless?  Should I thank people who pray for Liam?  Why?)

This is not a rant.  I held my opinions - I prefer to call it KNOWLEDGE - way before Liam came into this world.  This is food for thought for anybody who can justify Liam's suffering and who can link it to their God.

This posting's title is "But if there was a God".  Am I angry at God or think he's being unfair?  No, since I don't believe in its existence.

And now, if you excuse me, I'm heading over to her REAL bed to hold her REAL hand and hear her REAL screams.  Ok baby, Abba's here.  I'm sorry that you're hurting.  I'm sorry you don't feel well.  You don't deserve this.  Soooo sorry.  Ok, ssshhhhhhhh now, baby, let's try to get some rest.  SSSSSHHHHHHHHH.