Thursday, September 2, 2010

Types

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Types of tears
  • Decision making tears.
  • Signing papers tears.
  • Announcement tears.
  • Reading email tears.
  • Hugging tears.  (No really, stop hugging me!!!)
  • Thoughts about others' tears.
  • Thoughts about Meitav tears.
  • Memory tears.
  • Nurses (that we love and will never forget) tears (shouldn't they be  strong, immune to that kind of stuff)?
  • Unexplained and uninvited tears - especially when you're driving or in the middle of a work meeting.

The most difficult thing is...

  • Not death itself, but deciding on it for somebody else - somebody you love. someone who's part of your own self.
  • Not death itself, but waiting for it.
  • To look into Liam's open, wondering, curious, beautiful eyes - after the decision was made - asking what's going on.
  • To feel her little hand squeeze my finger. 
  • To know, yes know, that she doesn't want to go, but she doesn't have the strength to stay.  That's also another type of tears.
What's easy?
  • To crawl into Liam's bed, to hug her, to feel her warm skin.
What's hard?

  • To crawl into Liam's bed, to hug her, to feel her warm skin.  (No, that's not a typo.)

1 comment:

  1. Dear Rachel, Asher, Meitav and Liam,

    I just wanted to share a beautiful memory I have of Liam from back in the days when I used to babysit her and Meitav, when Leticia and the Barlows still lived next door. I must have *actually* sneezed in front of Liam one day, and I remember the most incredible, deep-belly, cackling laughter that rose from her body and spirit. It was so wonderful! So delightful! From that point on I always knew that if Liam needed to brighten her mood - or more importantly, if I DID! - I could *fake* sneeze for her and we'd both get the biggest kick out of it all. I remember her as she was at that time: a bright, happy, mischievous kid!

    I am sending all of you a big, warm hug from Minneapolis. I wish you strength and support and love and patience and more love and support as you are dealing with this very difficult transition and final road.

    Liam, you are a light! We will never lose you! I wish you peace!

    Rachel Fletcher
    Minneapolis, MN

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