Please respect visiting hours. Thanks.
Types of tears
- Decision making tears.
- Signing papers tears.
- Announcement tears.
- Reading email tears.
- Hugging tears. (No really, stop hugging me!!!)
- Thoughts about others' tears.
- Thoughts about Meitav tears.
- Memory tears.
- Nurses (that we love and will never forget) tears (shouldn't they be strong, immune to that kind of stuff)?
- Unexplained and uninvited tears - especially when you're driving or in the middle of a work meeting.
The most difficult thing is...
- Not death itself, but deciding on it for somebody else - somebody you love. someone who's part of your own self.
- Not death itself, but waiting for it.
- To look into Liam's open, wondering, curious, beautiful eyes - after the decision was made - asking what's going on.
- To feel her little hand squeeze my finger.
- To know, yes know, that she doesn't want to go, but she doesn't have the strength to stay. That's also another type of tears.
- To crawl into Liam's bed, to hug her, to feel her warm skin.
- To crawl into Liam's bed, to hug her, to feel her warm skin. (No, that's not a typo.)
Dear Rachel, Asher, Meitav and Liam,
ReplyDeleteI just wanted to share a beautiful memory I have of Liam from back in the days when I used to babysit her and Meitav, when Leticia and the Barlows still lived next door. I must have *actually* sneezed in front of Liam one day, and I remember the most incredible, deep-belly, cackling laughter that rose from her body and spirit. It was so wonderful! So delightful! From that point on I always knew that if Liam needed to brighten her mood - or more importantly, if I DID! - I could *fake* sneeze for her and we'd both get the biggest kick out of it all. I remember her as she was at that time: a bright, happy, mischievous kid!
I am sending all of you a big, warm hug from Minneapolis. I wish you strength and support and love and patience and more love and support as you are dealing with this very difficult transition and final road.
Liam, you are a light! We will never lose you! I wish you peace!
Rachel Fletcher
Minneapolis, MN